A sight that... Scared me... earlier today... I'm thinking abvout writing something about it... I don't know whetther to feel frightened.. or envious... or sad... maybe all three together..

As I sit and listen to my Buckethead, I miss the reason I started listening to them in the first place... But that time has passed... There's no going back for now... He wont I allow... I can't let myself be sad...

Lates nights with no sleep can be so little fun.

Once upon a night so dreary,
I sat and pondered, weak and weary,
With what my hunger I shall sedate,
So to the kitchen I went and ate.
Some crackers here, some chips right there,
But then I had to stop and stare.
For low before my eyes I saw,
A snack for which I dropped my jaw.
This cakke of sweetness so divine,
I had to stop and make it mine.
A slice of this treat I dared to take,
My sweet and lovely red velvet cake.

Work's a witch. like really. I hate it. Had to pull a 13 hour shift today, and now my stupid chat is messing up. DANGIT. Stuck on the song at the moment, head's pounding like... I don't even know what.. and I need to stop listening to this song!

I'm very excited now! I've been asked to collaborate on a song! The music for it is beautiful, and I love it! I've been asked to write the lyrics and (I think) eventually sing it. This is awesome! I've always dreamed of doing something involving music...

Verse 1

People always tell us
"You should try to get along
Things should all be balanced"
They don't know how much they're wrong.
In a world of equillibrium,
There is no wrong or right.
There is no need for Jesus,
There is no reason to fight.
Maybe it all seems good,
But there's one major flaw:
There's no individuality,
No differences at all.

Chorus

Do we really want to reach equillibrium?
Is that really how we want to spend our lives?
Is it place where we can be happy?
We need to hurry 'cause we're running out of time.

Verse 2

In a world of equillibrium,
You can't be nice or mean.
You can't be ugly or pretty,
Not even in between.
You'll never truly love,
Because you'll be assigned a mate.
You will not have emotion,
You wont even know hate.

Chorus

Do we really want to reach equillibrium?
Is that really how we want to spend our lives?
Is it place where we can be happy?
We need to hurry 'cause we're running out of time.

The government seeks this state,
This state of equillibrium,
They wish to own the populations,
The smart, the average, the dumb.
Speak out against this madness!
We will not be overrun.
Our lives are God's to govern,
Our freedom's will not be undone!

Chorus

Do we really want to reach equillibrium?
Is that really how we want to spend our lives?
Is it place where we can be happy?
We need to hurry 'cause we're running out of time.

I want to be noticed
For who I really am
I don't want people to like me
For a face that's just a sham.
People wont look past the beauty
That is only skin deep,
You need to look beyond the surface
For a friendship that will keep.
People can be so shallow
People can be so mean,
If you don't go places they go,
Then your courage they demean.
So give me a reason to believe
That you're different from the rest
Show me my pain you can relieve
When my strength's put to the test.

Verse 1:
Just because I'm different,
Does it make you all the same?
I'm in a world of disconnection,
And I don't know why I came.
I try to find my way around here,
And I think I've lost my mind.
They tell me follow every one else,
And you'll turn out just fine,
Chorus:
But why should I follow
Every trend that comes around?
I'm lookin' all around me,
But nothing makes a sound.
I try to find my way out of here,
But I tihnk I'm trapped inside here.
So tell me why should I be,
Like everyone else?
Verse 2:
I make my own trend of acting,
And my own way to speak.
They tell me follow everyone else,
And you'll find what you seek.
But I'm no one else's person
I can only be myself.
Only my own life will be worth it,
I wont be nobody else!
Chorus:
So why should I follow
Every trend that comes around?
I'm lookin' all around me,
But nothing makes a sound.
I try to find my way out of here,
But I tihnk I'm trapped inside here.
So tell me why should I be,
Like everyone else?
Bridge:
So don't ask me why
I don't even try
To be like everyone else
I'm only myself. 2x
Chorus 2x
Like everyone else...

Melancholy memories,
Bittersweet thoughts.
These things running through my head,
They worry me sometimes.
I try to forget sad things from the past,
But these melancholy memories return,
From the back of my mind they come
Like a bittersweet torrent.
Everytime I think I've gotten beeyond them,
something shows baxcck up
Releasing the flood of melancholy memories
It's bittersweet,
Like the taste in my mouth
Can I ever truly be rid of it?
I don't know for sure...
I can be strong, I have been strong,
And thought I had finally rid my heart
Of the aches of the past
But every now and again
Something will trigger
That melancholy memory
and release the bittersweet thoughts.
The past is no longer part of my life
But why do I dwell on it sometimes?
Have I truly moved on if these flashbacks
Keep coming back?
Have I really forgotten the pain
Caused by these past figures?
Where do I rid myself
Of the taste
Of the melancholy memories
And bittersweet thoughts.
I'm learning now how to do that.
Supressing the melancholy memories
Isn't easy...
But being with one who truly loves me..
Makes it so much easier..
Because I know that He's here now
And the melancholy memories are just that-
Memories.