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    Posted by funneemonkee - September 1st, 2010


    I hate insomnia and meds. They both suck. Meds more though. Cause they're what's giving me insomnia. And with having to work most mornings and the meds not even doing what they're supposed to, It kind of defeats the purpose.

    Ooooohhhhhhh and on a lighter notte, my dog has barked so much the past 2 weeks that he's hoarse. It's rather funny. Poor little guy.


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 27th, 2010


    So this sucks majorly. I've been to the stupid hospital twice in the past 2 days. First time I was in the ER, and the ssecond time was to get some bloodwork done. I have absolutely no idea what's wrong. So yeah.......


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 25th, 2010


    Cinnabon Cinnamon rolls for breakfast, a swift bike ride, and a hot shower. Sounds like a lovely day. New books to boot for after work. Now all I'm missing is.....


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 18th, 2010


    Oddly angry. I've been listening to Justin Timberlake's Cry Me a River (Don't make fun of me. I like that song) and I'm angry because of it. I want to go out and yell "CRY ME A FUCKING RIVER BITCH" and I have no idea. I just want to destroy shit.


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 13th, 2010


    I really need to start thinking before I do stupid shit. I feel so strung tight right now.. Like Anytihng and everything is going to set me off... I've exploded twice this week... once on someone very important to me... I've got to stop this... I need to stop taking this stupid medicine, but i can't... Stupid doctor wont let me... It's screwing with my emotions and my mood... I HATE MYSELF!


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 9th, 2010


    Is anybody listening,
    Can you hear my voice
    I want to be loved,
    But that is not my choice.

    I don't know where I am
    Or anybody around
    I do want to be noticed,
    But I wont make a sound.

    I always feel left out
    Like I'm not really there
    All I want is to be loved,
    For someone just to care.

    It doesn't matter who you are
    If you'll just notice me
    But this pain I feel inside
    If only you could see.

    I sit here all alone
    And in the dark I cry
    And you don't even care enough,
    To stop and wonder why...

    So left out of everything
    Left with nothing inside
    So I don't show you anytihng
    And these tears I hide

    I can't figure out why I'm here
    Or who I really am
    And the way that you ignore me
    Is more than I can stand.

    So here I'll always be
    Cause I mean nothing to you
    And if I go and hurt myself
    There's nothing you can do.

    So I fake it and I smile
    And I act like nothing's wrong
    And you stand there and believe me,
    Until I'm really gone.

    So in there final words
    With which I'll end this night
    The way you treated this girl,
    Was never really right.

    Fin.


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 7th, 2010


    Cold,cold
    Torn up,let down
    Alone, alone,
    Sitting here you frown

    You say to yourself,
    Why, why?
    And sitting here,
    Alone you cry

    No! No!
    You want to scream
    But then again,
    What would it mean?

    Cry cry
    You're here alone
    By yourself,
    In your room

    Knife in hand,
    Blade on flesh,
    Don't you stop
    To think of death

    Go,go
    Your mind speaks
    But this is not
    Relief you seek.

    Too late you hear
    A friendly voice
    No way back,
    You made the choice.

    You cry again
    The voice is there
    So suddenly,
    You stop and stare

    He looks so kind
    You want to trust
    In him and then
    You know you must

    He takes your hand
    He comforts you
    He helps you learn
    What you should do

    You cry again,
    In his arms
    He protects you
    Safe and warm

    So Finally
    Your anger's gone
    You thank him for
    What he has done

    You see him smile
    And shake his head
    You wake, astonished
    In your bed

    You look around,
    You're breathing hard
    And on the chair
    You see a card

    "Please remember
    These things tonight
    And they will help you
    Win the fight."

    "The fight?" you ask
    Confused of now
    But then you stop
    And think of how

    You smile and then
    Thank him again
    Close your eyes,
    And go back to bed.

    Fin


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 6th, 2010


    I saw you standing there today..
    I saw you there with her...
    You looked the same as I remember...
    Tall, handsome, strong...
    You looked as though you were arguing with her...
    You were distanced as we were when we fought... Back when you were mine...
    I want to ask, to comfort, to know... But it's neither my right or place...
    So here I'll sit... wondering, waiting...
    Until the day I hear from you again...
    You're my first love.
    Loved you then, love you still.... always have, always will....
    I'll never forget you, my Love....
    Even though you're no longer mine...
    I'm trying to move on....
    But it's hard...


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 4th, 2010


    So, I was at a friends house watching a movie, when I get a text from my dad (who's a police officer). He's freaking the heck out because apparently ssomeone called the cops and was going to have my car towed because I apparently was in a no tresspassing zone. I had no idea. I didn't see the signs until after I got back to my car and they were pointed out to me. You have noo idea how badly my heart was racing.


    Posted by funneemonkee - August 4th, 2010


    Exactly what I mean damnit! you seem so distant now! Why... why can't you just...