It's coming so near. The end I mean. I honestly fear for my life, or at least my health. I know great harm will be done if I don't work this out, but I can't seem to make it right. I'm doing all I can, but It's just worsening the anger. I will be hurt very seriously if I do not fix this, however the hell I'm supposed to. I suppose I'lll end up in the hospital, like it's said I will.... The end of my life as it is... Turned into a blathering fool who's afraid to speak... My life as it is will be gone. And I'll almost die. I guess that's what I get for trying to help everyone. If I see no one before that day... Forgive me for wrongs I have done... If I disappear for a while, know this is why....